I havent been here for aaaggessss...
Sounds like you guys (People on my friends list) Are having a bit of a hard time of it...from 'weirdos'...Ignore ignore ignore.  They obviously have nothing better to do with their time!!...Anyways...

So...ALOT has happened..And its late over here now (well..its only 10.30..but I was working till 5am this morning...I have that weird 'eye flicking' thing...U must get that sometimes? Eye shudders...hehe..Or am I just strange?! hahaha

In Nudge world =
                               I finished with the Cutey about 3 weeks ago, I realised i wasnt ready for a relationship...Still not over Mr.X...Although I can proudly say I have not heard from or contacted him for 2 months! wow! Ive heard from different sources that he is now going out with a stripper and he's happy...Best of luck I say!

Ive been a bit of a whore for the last month....Slept with a couple of guys (Dont ask why..I still dont really know myself) But last night I nailed  the coffins closed ( Metaphorically speaking..I havent become a mass murderer..!)  Im Now  OFFICIALLY single...and that means no to - One night stands, drinks with men that i  arent my friends already, no taking of phone numbers, No DATING. I discussed with my sister that since i was 16 i have been in relationship with men in one way or another...So I thing this task is VERY challenging, But I think it needs to be done for my own sanity!

I lost 2 stone in weight...Yay...But ive managed to just eat a box of mini Oreos (U know over here, You can only get them in ONE shop!...And they cost a bomb! Ridiculous!)

I turned 25 last Friday...Had a nice birthday...Very relaxed, as ive not been drinking or smoking pot for a few weeks..Its the first birthday i can actally remember from start to finish in a good few years! hehehe

And....I start a new job on Saturday...Woohhooo! Its in  mobile phone shop...so no more Nightclub for me...Goodbye rubbish music...goodbye losing my weekends...goodbye me being a nightmare with men/temptation/drugs/ obsessing about the way I look.....Can only be a good thing eh?!

But...the question is...WHY AM I STILL NOT HAPPY?! .....Im officially mad.....its the only conclusion i can reach.      Love you guys!  Peace N Hugs   Nudge xxxx

Odd Facts about
ME DO YOU SNORE?: According to people that sleep in my bed...yes...and talk...
LOVER OR A FIGHTER?: Fight for love sometimes
WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?: Being alone...or failing to live up to expectations
AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?: No...stickle bricks!
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY TV"?: Hate to admit i love it
DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?: Yup
WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?: My mum says i was the prettiest..but my siblings were Very ugly!
HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?: Learning alot about myself
WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?: Silver black and has surf stickers on the corners
DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?:Nope...I talk to myself
HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?: I got up...and failed to jump...one regret..so i'll do it one day
ANY SECRET TALENTS?: I can Click my wrists and i can play the cello
WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?: Thailand..south of France or Brighton
HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?: Yesh...bluughhh
HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?: Bits of it
DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?: Nah
HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?: A what?
CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?: Nope..I struggle doing it the right way..hehehe
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?: Yes..Alot...and jumped out at 14.000ft
ARE SPEEDO'S HOT?: No...Google...'Peter stringfellow in g-string' and u'll know why
WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?: You need to understand that your food doesnt come pre-packed...but I think hunting really only ok if u are gonna skin, gut and eat the animal yourself...I think its wrong to do it for 'fun'.
IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?: I'd like to think i'll meet my soul mate...Its not outta my grasp yet!
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?: My handwriting changes from day to day..so sometimes!
WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?: Damp..pollen...and Orange juice..bizzare i know...!
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU": Cant remember
IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?: That rapper guy? Course not
DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?: Depends who's wedding it is
HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?: Boiled with soldiers
ARE BLONDES DUMB?: Im blonde..U decide
WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?: Fuck knows
WHAT TIME IS IT?: 10.33....Bloody winter now!
DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?: Nudge...cashdesk beeatchh...Ernie...and many variations of my real name.
IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?: Apart from the banana milkshakes and hash browns..yup!
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?: About 3hours ago..lift back from my cousin
DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?: Showers...but baths when i wanna relax
IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?: Its a capitalist ploy...the OBLIGATION to buy presents...how very fucking dandy!
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?: Yes..specially now i live on my own
WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?: Bad men..Vodka...Computer games..Talking shit...and Pizza on sundays!
CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?: Crunchy all the way dude!
HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?: Yup..when i smashed myself up in a car when i was 5
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?: twice..
IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?: No fecking way!
ARE YOU WEARING SOCKS?: Yesh
HAVE YOU EVER HITCH HIKED?: Yesh..in Hawaii..and in portugal..Never over here..Id get raped and murdered!
WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?: A very clear green
WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: Yesterday...argued with my mum
DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?: Yeah man..Its a beautiful thing!
WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER?: I cant think of anyone that doesnt like ever aspect of their life..so..no-one!
ARE YOU PSYCHIC?: I think i may have a little E.S.P...i feel gifted sometimes....
HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?: Nope
DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?: Cello...can play a little piano...
CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?: Sort of! hehehe
DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?: Only at festivals!
DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?: No...but i dribble...hahaha!
DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?: I see a little magic everyday...in one way or ano
IS A DOG A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?: no, I am!
YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?: uh, yeah - but I don't want to do it
CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?: nope
DOES YOUR MOM KNOW YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?: yeah
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?: A sour Haribo
DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?: I bite my nails so theres no point
DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?: yes
WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?: The one with Michael winner
DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?: Dont know what that is...So no
FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?: Razorlight...Get cape wear cape fly..and Damien Rice

This photo is of me...my friend H and a knitted Sponge bob...It was taken 2 months ago and 'V Festival' Which is in Cheltenham....It was taken after 3days of drugs...booze and amazing music...and it kinda makes me chuckle....! x

This is a picture of my kitty...ALF...hes the coolest cat ever...and keeps me from feeling lonely when i get home late from work!....x

Feeling ok actually...havent strayed at all...and drank 2 and half litres of water yesterday...and it wasnt even a struggle..I went to work and that was fine too...i know its going to get harder at some point...im just waiting for it..! I think saturday night is going to be the hardest. Im going out with Cutie and some of his friends and a couple of mine, going to a pub in the old town...and i cant drink..or do drugs (I thought id knock them on the head at the same time!) So..im on water...haha...that should be interesting!! hmmmmm! Oh well...I guess i'll try my best and think of the coolest new jeans i'll be able to fit in to!!!! Bumped in To X last night, he looked really awful..told him he looked like Simon Cowell, he looked really tired and angry. I didnt stop for our usual chitchat or arguement, I just said 'I hope things are going well and u are looking after yourself' and made my excuses and left. He text me straight after and said he 'i hate seeing you, it makes me realise that i miss you'   I delelted it and put it to the back of my mind, its getting easier and easier thankgod!! Nudge x